eat & sleep, repeat

Well the days are counting down, the end is near! Can't say that I'm bummed. I miss Lauren like crazy! This trip has taught me many things but mostly it has taught me that there is no human in this world that I would rather be around and that is my wife, my best friend, quite literally my other half. The English language does not have words that would express sufficiently my feelings for Lauren. She is to me what the sun is to the earth, what the moon is to the night sky. I now know what it means to truly miss someone. I have NEVER longed to be close to another person like I do now, I fall asleep with an ache in my heart, an emptiness I can hardly bear. I will not be away from her again like this, when she passes so will I. My heart goes out to all who have not found a love like this, Lauren inspires me to be a better person, she is the reason I get up in the morning and the reason I sleep sound at night.I trust her like no other, I would gladly give my life for her. She is my life, my love, my very best friend, if I had known I would feel like this I would have not gone on this trip. As great as it has been, it has not been worth being away from her. Perhaps I am a week man, but I don't care, Lauren IS my life, without her I am half. I realy did sleep the first 25 years of my life, when I met her I awoke. I am now motivated like never before to be a better human, to be the very best man that I can be, to earn the love she so unconditionally honors me with.

Lauren, I love you so much I literally hurt in your absence! I don't care what lables "they" put on it, I need you to be me. I miss you, I love you, I will never be away from you like this again, I would gladly live a life of squallor and pain, if only I could be with you, my love, my life, my wife.